So.......yeah, awkward......

Hmm...well, really I haven't updated this damned thing since I was in school. (and that was last fall semester for those keeping score)

Sorry for anyone that actually reads this...although I feel I haven't disappointed too many people.

For those of you who don't know, I missed this last spring semester because of illness; long story short (although if you wanna know the details just ask), my continuing conditions caused me to lose and few organs and almost die in the process. (alot more exciting than it sounds really) Since then though, I've become a bum, migrating between my parents houses, not doing much of anything besides being sick and screwing around on my laptop.

My life hasn't been horrible, I mean, I'm still alive right? Whatever.....I don't have to get a job and I'm pretty well taken care of...

Anyways...to end this on a different note, I leave you with this. It's been stuck in my head recently; good band, catchy song, and it works with what I've been feeling lately.

Tonight wasn't the first time I've witnessed such catastrophic evidence of nobodies having hearts, but just like every time before, it still hurts. It pains everyone, it effects everyone; no one is perfect. It's not fair, it's not right, and it makes me loathe this world with each passing moment.

No one wins, this game is fixed. Can't anyone else see this? Are they blind, or is it me. Can I fix things? Are things able to or meant to be fixed?

I hate it. It makes me sick.

But I'm here for you. I will bend myself until I break for you. It's not healthy, but I don't care. I love you, oh god, I regret never being able to express it. But I do, beyond what you might think, it's not an obsession if this unrequited love is finally returned, right? Ha...I will try to not be selfish.

Selfishness is one of the roots of this evil. Being entirely selfless accomplishes nothing.

Due to...recent complications... me and Demyx won't be able to hang out with Axel D:

It is unfortunate, but inevitable. Axel has some stuff he has to take care of (priorities and such...), and I don't know how long of a hiatus this might be, but I can only hope things work out.

I deal with this new dilemma by baking cookies...lot and LOTS of cookies (being domestic helps me work out stress and cookies help Demyx cope as well). So...yeah. That's about it...no good news here...stay tuned for more updates I guess...

So....today was a special day for the "people" of this "earth" place. You see, there was this election thing, where all of the citizens of the U.S. voted for a person to lead their country for four years (lol, the superior would backhand any of us if we were to suggest such a thing as "voting"). Me, Demyx, and Axel all participated in this event, and it was pleasant to see the outcome (which I'm sure anyone reading this knows). Also, it was mildly entertaining to see Axel get so worked up over something that wasn't under-aged and unwilling. :P Demyx was also ecstatic that "blue" won....I wish I was as easily amused. Anyways, this is just a short update...I don't really have much else to say. (I need to get my ass back to work)

I hope to update more often (I love this internet thing), but if I don't, oh well. (not like anyone reads this anyways...)
TTFN <3

Earth is a deplorable place, half of the people here don't deserve their hearts! At least this place is beautiful, their are huge libraries. This "college" thing has me on my toes, I've never done more work in my life (knowledge and illusions can't help you get through tedious mind-numbing crap that has little to no meaning besides taking up hours to get a degree...I apologize for the rant...).  (-_-)" For once the presence of Demyx is actually keeping me sane(?!), even if he keeps making puberty jokes...if this continues I won't make anymore cookies. :P Axel seems to be in hiding, although I'm sure he is doing some type of work to keep himself busy. Overall the mission seems at least mildly successful...although the Superior didn't really give us the most specific instructions... I will continue to work hard to make sure our mission is completed well and strive to hold up the name of our organization in the process.